After 12 years in her arms, Sydney started asking me to leave in late 2021.
I listened, for a few months.
And then I went back for another year.
I have shared many times I can be a very slow learner.
While I talk a lot about the unknown and not having a plan, I can also be overly considered in the moves I make. While they are intuitive and oftentimes nonsensical, they have usually been knowings that have banged loudly at the back of my awareness for a long time first.
While I tell myself I’m getting a lot better at trusting what I know (and I am, of course) there are still moments where I have to laugh at how obvious it was all along.
In todays letter, we’re talking about home, moving away from it, and how Japan has continued to reach back out to me, even when I wasn’t ready to hear the call.
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