I’m not trying to be dramatic when I say 2023 has been the wildest year of my life.
It has been without a doubt the most challenging.
It has been without a doubt the most incredible.
This year I’ve been experiencing what I’ve been referring to as The Slipstream.
The feeling of being pulled along by some divine current I have not a shred of control over.
It would be impossible for me to share here all the magic, all the synchronicities, all the unbelievable things that have happened this year in a single substack.
It would be impossible for me to share here all the grief, all the painful clarity, all decisions I wanted to run away from, all the time spent doubting myself, all the time I spent acutely alone, all the time I spent wondering if I’d made a long string of huge mistakes, as if all the work I had done on myself for the last decade was now moving in reverse.
It would be impossible for me to share here all the ways my relationships outside of the romantic have grown and evolved. The connections that needed to disintegrate back into the earth. The ones that deepened, taught me more about love than I’ve ever known, all the threads woven back together, a stronger braid than ever before.
What I want to talk about in today’s letter, as the year wraps up to a close, is how the action of surrender and release and the courage to be in the unknown feels now to me like the most true definition of getting ahead and starting the year strong.
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Rewind to almost exactly one year ago.
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