Two days ago, I downloaded depop for the first time.
Do you ever have that thing, where you hear about something like, forever, but it just rattles around in the empty caverns of your mind until, suddenly, one day, you realise:
Wait.
Why aren’t I buying second hand clothes anymore?
Or.
Why haven’t I read Braiding Sweetgrass? Or actually listened to Billie Eilish? Or watched Lord of the Rings?
Let me know — do you have this too?
Or is it just me, resisting what is common and popular because, buried not too far beneath the surface, I am still that alternative teenager who grew up in a coastal town, that teenager who couldn’t be regular (surfer) cool because my skin was too pale (okay so once somebody called me moon tan and I pretended not to care even though I was pretty hurt and now exactly one million years later, I can’t think of anything more complimentary) and my hair was too red, so I had to be alternative cool, and that was that.
Or maybe it’s a Sacral being thing?
Is this a sign of Gs & MG’s really being in connection with our sacrals without even trying? When someone mentions how amazing meditation is and you don’t act on it because ‘you know you should’, or because ‘how can I be spiritual if I don’t meditate’ but seven years later somebody says kirtan kriya over lunch and without taking half a breath you’re already on a sheepskin chanting sa ta na ma and it’s totally changing your world?
I’m genuinely interested in this.
It’s a pattern and a theme for me.
The more I sit with it, the more I feel like, ahhhhhh, that’s how I am supposed to be living, with everything: not just pop culture and books and clothes, but everything.
Less forcing new habits or routines or moves in my business because they’re right and good or instagram says so: but simply waiting until that moment where the energy just pulls you forward and pours you all the way in.
Remembering not right now doesn’t mean not ever.
Trusting timing over should’s.
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