Below, a thirty minute human design story time.
How we met, how I wanted to run away from the start, and all the unexpected ways this technology continues to change my whole entire life.
My relationship with human design continues to be complicated, navigated and re-navigated over the years. I distance myself from it and like a lovesick avoidant high on the distance between us, I come crawling right back. I downplay my interest in it publicly, while using it as the lens through which I see my entire life. I take human design readings off my website, then secretly feel a rush of joy when people email me to see if they can still book. I feel alive with light when we meet digitally for the session (my answer is almost always yes) trust what they say, feel embarrassed, but know it’s true when they give the feedback: I feel like you were tapped into something, you were channelling directly for me right now.
My hesitation with human design has a lot of layers.
It’s too trendy. I don’t want to make it my whole online identity. I don’t like systems or rules or labels and yet (and YET!) I cannot deny the reality: no tool, no amount of self-reflection or stillness (as much as these things definitely help) has brought me the same level of deep and unshakable trust in myself, my body and life itself as human design.
I resist anything that seeks to put us into a box. While it may look like human design attempts this when we first encounter it, the more I lean in over the years, the more it shows me the exact literal opposite: I am the one creating the box with my mind.
This is an intimate and personal story, and for my own peace of mind (I need it as much as possible right now) this one will be behind the paywall. Thank you for being here and if you want to learn and hear more personal stories and human design everything, join us for tomorrow nights workshop!
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